i dunno how to express how i dislike this pulmonology...
how come there's still schedules on Dec30-31. dammit! why don't they make those days off so I can get longer holiday?
speaking of holiday, i think i don't get any holiday spirit... yeah.. because i still have some tasks, and another shift..

i had a night-shift last night. at the emergency. well, it was more interesting rather than in the ward...lots of patients, but unfortunately, i didn't get any pleural tap lastnight.
i don't feel really tired, though i was sleepless. when i got home i slept for 6 hours this morning... i thought i would sleep for 12 hours..

i miss holiday..
i miss having a good time..
i will probably miss spending this new year's eve..
my family will go out of city, but on dec31 my school will finish at 3p.m. and they will be already leaving.. i'm left. i'll be alone and lonely on new year's eve.. i think i should plan something,, there's still few days left. but, i dunno what it would be..

God... I miss holiday so much...
i need another getaway, another backpacking...