hidup gw sangat sangat membosankan selama internsip ini.
buktinya, semenjak gw internsip gw bahkan ga ada postingan baru.
postingan terakhir disini adalah 15 oktober, dan gw berangkat internsip 18 oktober.

sekilas tentang internsip gw yang udah berjalan 6 bulan. *wow! ga berasa juga*

gw internsip di RSUD MA Sentot. Patrol, Indramayu. di Jl Pantura KM 50. RS gw bener2 pinggir jalan. dan kota - atau yg lebih tepat disebut Kecamatan  - Patrol itu sendiri cuma berapa petak di pinggir jalan Pantura.

gw internsip ber 10. dari foto di atas, yang cowo2: Caca, Wibi, Yusron, Tomi, Damba. yang cewe: Roma, Dita, Findra, Gw, Levina. Btw, foto diatas itu diambil di hari pertama kita internsip. biasa... masih norak.

program internsip ditempat gw mungkin beda ama di RS lain.
di tempat gw, ga jauh beda sama jaman koas. masuk jam 7.30 pulang jam 2. senin-sabtu. trus digilir stase nya.
yah, itu sih berlaku 2 bulan pertama.

selanjutnya... masuk jam 7.30.. ikut visite dokter spesialisnya. selesai visite jam 9. abis itu pulang deh.... hahahahaah

di gw di bagi 5 stase: stase IGD, VK, IPD, Bedah, Anak.di bagi berdua2.. gw berpasangannya ama Wibi si Anak Dekan. kombo lethal pemalas.Wibi kalo lagi mood bisa bener2 rajin sih... tapi selalu kalah ama game di laptop.. gw, kalah sama bantal.

yg bisa masuk jam 7.30 pulang jam 9 cuma VK, IPD, Anak.
kalo IGD, tetep nungguin sampe jam 2. Kalo bedah, bisa ikut operasi, kadang selesainya lebih sore daripada jam 2.

dibanding di tempat lain yang stase IGD, jaganya kaya papan catur.. kalo gw  jaga malemnya bisa seminggu sekali. *iyaa... kaya koas banget..* jadi yg jaga malemnya dari awal internsip diundi dari kita ber10... tapi kalo yg jaga IGD paginya yaa yg stase IGD.

ga ada bedanya lah ama jaman koas, judulnya aja sekarang udah dokter.

bedanya, sekarang ilmu gw degradasi. ga berkembang. maleeessss banget.... untungnya SpPD di tempat gw lulusan FKUI , baik dokter umumnya&Sp nya, dan sempet jadi staf di IPD sebentar jadi dia masih sering ngajar2in kita. SpOT nya juga lulusan FKUI, orangnya rameeee bgt banyak ceritanya, dan kadang ngajarin dikit2 juga... sayangnya pasien ortopedi di tempat gw udh makin dikit.. kalah saing ma dukun patah tulang.

hal produktif yg gw lakukan selama internsip: baca novel. yang baru: main Sims Medieval.ga bisa dibilang hal produktif juga sih.. gw aja bingung, apa yg udah gw hasilkan selama 6 bulan ini.

selama ga nulis di sini selama 6 bulan, gw pernah nulis di alternative blog gw...tapi ya udah. gw ga ada ide mau nulis apa lagi.

my life's so boring. a friend said i should resuscitate the blog before it died... so maybe i should try.

gara-gara mesti ngumpulin untuk di buku angkatan, i just post it here. walau sebenernya gw tetep aja ngerasa ada yang kurang dari yang gw tulis.

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Motto Hidup:

Live like we're dying (-gara2 kebanyakan denger Kris Allen)

Do your best, let Allah do the rest

Momen terfavorit selama di FKUI:

(mungkin emang belum di FKUI) tapi saat pengumuman SPMB thn 2005 gw lulus di FKUI, ortu gw seneng bukan main dan baru kali itu gw melihat mereka segitu bahagianya

kalau di FKUI, waktu pertama kalinya masuk OK. seneng banget sama hawa bersihnya, dapet PPDS anestesi yang baik banget mau ngajarin macem2 dan ikut liat operasi plastik skin graft yang operatornya adalah dr.Tompi yang orangnya rame banget.

Momen paling memalukan/menyedihkan/aneh selama di FKUI:

waktu modul anestesi saat ujian pasien di OK, mestinya ujian dgn dr.A tiba-tiba dateng dr.R ke OK dan nanya2in gw. Begitu gw ga bisa nge-bagging, dr.R mau ngajarin, "Liat saya, dek!". yang gw liatin malah bulu matanya yang lentik banget. Dan tu dokter nyadar kalo gw ngeliatin yang lain, "liatnya yang ini!!" (nunjukin cara bagging-nya)

Modul/Bagian terfavorit: anak

Alasan: sebenernya pada awalnya gw ga suka anak, karena emang ga suka anak-anak dan takut sama bagiannya. tapi modul anak well-organized bgt dan bikin termotivasi belajar. padahal gw orangnya pemalas bgt. dan gara2 di modul anak gw jadi bisa menyukai anak-anak.

Hal terfavorit selama di FKUI (boleh lebih dari 1):

-ketemu temen-temen baru, dari mulai seneng2 bareng sampe nemenin gw disaat gw membutuhkan mereka

-menyadari arti hidup, perjuangan, dan pentingnya bersyukur

-akhirnya riset yang dimulai dari tingkat 2 awal, modalnya mahal dan modal sendiri, selesai juga waktu modul riset tingkat 4

Cita-cita/impian hidup:

Membahagiakan kedua orang tua, hidup bahagia dan selamat di dunia dan di akhirat.

Harapan dalam waktu 20 tahun:

· karir: entah jadi konsulen bedah plastik, entah jadi pejabat depkes, entah lagi nerusin sekolah lagi di luar negeri

· keluarga: small happy family, lovely husband and cute kids, hahaha

· finansial: tergantung karir nantinya dan tergantung penghasilan lainnya

· minat/hobi: udah bisa jalan-jalan keliling Indonesia dan mengunjungo beberapa negara yang emang gw cita-citakan dari kecil. harus udah pernah nonton konser musisi2 favorit gw: john mayer, michael buble, coldplay, maroon 5, dan banyak lagi.

I just met an old friend yesterday.
and I just heard a glimpse of this song today.
how it's all connected:
I often asked him to play this song back in the old days.

I really like this song.
listen to the guitar riff on the intro.
love it!

I was so happy in meeting my friend again yesterday.
last time I remember meeting him was back on 2006, when he's just got accepted in the same university (but different major, of course). and the last time he text me was maybe a year ago when he asked Orthopedist consultant for his dad.

so, I can say I'm no good in maintaining friendship.

he was a really good friend. just friend. and we'd never been more.
I'm glad that we didn't.

I'm happy for any woman you're with now, friend.



Gothic flavor,
How I miss you.
If I only
Once could kiss you.

I'd be happpy
For one moment
Of my lifetime
I'd be there.

And the water
Running over
Me is growing
Ever colder.

Make me happy
For one moment
Of my lifetime
I'd be there.

i just want to collect some of my own quotes that i made on my twitter. i'll start resuming my tweets every end of the month.. since i just start from this month, i cover the months have passed since i actively twittering.

-NOVEMBER 2009-

spilling the secrets is like pinching my furuncle-like pimple. it's itching, but if i do it, i'll make scars. 3:22 PM Nov 29th

you know what hurts? believing what u want to hear, what u want to see, and what u want to believe, but all those are just never there. 6:44 PM Nov 25th

yes, i've been overthinking or overreacting. but i like that this cold heart beats again. at least i know i'm alive. 3:32 PM Nov 24th

i like hitting my head to any hard objects now. it makes my head feel better. 4:12 PM Nov 22nd

one other thing money can't buy: time 2:46 PM Nov 9th


-OCTOBER 2009-

i now prefer plugging my ears . it's not that I'm not grateful with my hearing. i think i need to learn diminishing unnecessary sounds. 6:02 PM Oct 25th


-SEPTEMBER 2009-

i can't be a junkie, right? i'm just addicted to a pain killer. 8:57 PM Sep 18th


-AUGUST 2009-

membuat pembenaran sendiri: 'ga ada kata terlambat utk mulai belajar' ;p 8:35 PM Aug 30th


-JULY 2009-

okay, i'm fasting.. hold all emotions. 8:37 AM Jul 24th

the enemy of my enemy is my ally. 2:05 AM Jul 17th


-JUNE 2009-

research needs sacrifices 4:39 PM Jun 3rd


i have twitter account since january 2009, but my first tweet was on March, and just actively twittering since May.

holiday ramblings...

finally i log in again.

i do have lots to write about, but I simply don't have enough time. I found microblogging via twitter is quite accommodating. I join twitter about last year, but as it getting happening nowadays, I just actively tweeted from few months ago. follow my twitter! or you can see what I tweeted on the widget on the right tab.

so, finally, I can call a holiday! yeay!! It's Eid break. for a week. yeay!!

now I'm on my final year on my medical school. my fifth year. as in new curriculum, I'd graduate as a medical doctor in five years program.

I start this year with child&adolescent health a.k.a. Pediatrics.
I'm so anxious with this one. I don't know. The teachers are scary, most known as teachers who often fail the students. And I'm anxious with the clinical practice itself.

as a schizoid, I have blunt affect. I have no empathy. I couldn't relate well to others. and the most important things, I don't like children.

as the youngest in my family, i'm used to have all attentions for me as a small kid. i'm not used to have anyone younger to get more attentions.
i don't like kids when they scream out loud - because i'm the quiet one. I don't like kids when they're out of control. i just don't like kids.
maybe it's just because i always feel i'm the youngest and the smallest.

and now, i passed 5 weeks in Peds - still 4 weeks to go.
so far, my dislikes of kids has been decreased. kids are cute. especially the newborn ones. all of sudden, I feel this motherly, the feeling which has been buried somewhere all these years, when I see cute newborns.
I want kids. someday. with me & my significant other (who i haven't met yet) genes run through them. I even dreamed about having baby last night (though it was weird one).

but still, I don't like kids who are out of control and crying out loud. there was a day when I suffered migraine, which was getting more sensitive of sounds, It killed me! so I just stormed out of the room, left my friends in the same room without notice.

one thing I don't like of clinical practice is poker face or faking.
I fake I care. I set my face as friendly as I can be. I don't know. I just haven't figured it out to make me really care, to let out the humanity inside me. I used the patients then I pretend I care about them. I'm no GOD. I don't think I can care about all those patients. but please give me chances to try to care.

but i think everyone do poker face. so, it's not the worst thing to do.

enough of these ramblings.
pointless writings.

Happy holiday everyone!

Have a very blessing Eid Mubarak!

gara2 pengangguran dirumah. kerjaan gw cuma main internet dan nonton tv acara gosip dan acara musik lokal.

gw ga habis pikir, kenapa beberapa band indonesia makin ga kreatif.
waktu itu gw denger lagu yang nyontek Starlight-nya Muse.
tadi gw denger lagu yang nyontek Stuck in a moment (you can't get out of) - nya U2.

mbo kalo mo nyontek lagu luar ya jangan yang ngehits banget.
kaya d'massiv nyontek Switchfoot yang notabenenya kurang happening. kan orang ga gtu ngeh..

nah, 2 lagu indo tadi (versi indonya Starlight & Stuck in a moment), ga perlu gw dengerin ampe selesai dari intronya aja udah tau kalo itu lagunya Muse dan lagunya U2. ask anyone at their age or my age, smua pasti tau lagu itu.

Changcuters juga mulai ga kreatif karena bikin videoklip ngikutin gayanya Coldplay - Life in Technicolor II yaitu Puppet Show.

bukan gw ga ngehargain karya bangsa sendiri.... mbo kalo mo niru jangan dari yang terkenal banget... bikin malu aja.

macam (alm) mbah surip yang ternyata lagu Tak Gendong yang fenomenal itu mirip ama lagu thn 50an.

yah.. mudah2an musik indonesia makin membaik..

Maybe I don't have a heart. I've told you that I have tendency to have schizoid personality disorder which is sort of cold-heart, no empathy.

There were blasts in Jakarta yesterday.
Most of my friends (I read it on my facebook account), cursed the terrorist for those attacks. They blamed terrorist for any reason. and among my friends, I could say that I didn't have any emotions of what happened yesterday.

And here's my point of view.
I'm trying to see the bigger picture. I had felt - and maybe sort of forecasting (ask my dad if you don't believe it, I had told my dad) since before President election that there was something wrong happened and about to happen.
the world is no longer safe place. I said, the WORLD. Not Indonesia only.
I know people had that words since ages. but I was asking my dad few days ago, "What's going on with this world?"

since I don't have anything to do this holiday, I spent my days just watching TV and internet browsing. the more I watched, the more I knew bad things happened.

I was not too noticing what happened in World news. because all local TVs mostly covered the news of Michael Jackson's death. I just remembered about plane crashes and Iran election.

I was more noticing about local news. Lots of bad things happened. I don't care about election, I used my voice in not-voting.
- there were fires everyday. a gas or stove explosion, but happened almost day by day. were people just being the same reckless everyday?
- there was hot mud explosion in East Java that seemed never coming to an end.
- there were mysterious shooter attacks in Papua.
- there was 15 billion rupiah robbery.
- there were swine flu which getting more pandemic.
Not to mention some news of personal reckless like a car fell from 2nd floor, suicidal attempts, new students death of bullying and babies death because their parents missing.

And I knew, those news were not relate each other.
but didn't you see the big picture that Bad things happened everyday.

and yesterday was the big one.

suddenly people showed their empathy and other emotions (read: hatred by cursing terrorist).
suddenly people cared about each other, cared of Indonesia.

what do people feel about the news I mentioned above?
Nothing!
people just freaked out because the blast happened just before Man Utd arrived in Jakarta. It would show that Indonesia was not a safe place.

Indonesia is not a safe place, People!
but Indonesia is a beautiful place.
though I haven't visited most places in Indonesia, I know Indonesia is beautiful.

Stop cursing, people! Stop being bad mouth and bad thinkers.
I'm not pro terrorist. and I said, I'm not good with empathy.
instead of cursing, you'd better do what you can do.
if there's nothing you can do, then it's better you do nothing rather than being bad mouths.

in conclusion,
I said that the world is no longer a safe place.
bad things could happen anytime, anywhere.
who knows, maybe today is the end of the world. or just the end of your life.
and you may hear these words so often: do your best, let Allah do the rest. spend more time with your loved ones, your family and friends. because you only know what you've got til it's gone.

officially holiday begins.
skripsi udah beres. tinggal kasih softcopy dan nunggu nilai.

Allah tau banget cara ngerem gue beli buku.
kemaren gw ke Gramedia PIM. tujuannya sih beliin folder titipan kaka ian.
tapi dasar gw suka ama toko buku, tangan gw gatel pengen beli buku.
trus udah tuh gw ambil buku2 yang gw pengen.
begtu gw sampe kasir.
..... dompet gue kosong! ga ada duitnya, ga ada atmnya!!
sehari sebelumnya gw abis ada acara resepsi nikahan sepupu, jadi gw ngeluarin isi dompet utk dimasukin ke tas kecil... dan ternyata gw blom masukin duitnya lagi ke dompet.
untung masih ada 50rb di selip2an dompet, jadi gw bayar foldernya. ga jadi deh gw beli buku..
Allah tau klo masih banyak buku yang blm gw baca, Allah tau kalo gw emang gatel beli buku.

udah beberapa hari selama liburan ini... gw nonton DVD Boyzone Back Again LIVE 2008. kenapa gw bilang beberapa hari, karena tiap nonton gw ga pernah selesai. ketiduran mulu. soalnya nontonnya malem2 banget.
gw suka ma Boyzone, tapi gw aga telat waktu tau ternyata mereka reunian..
walaupun Boyzone paling sering nyanyi cover-version.. gw lebih suka mereka daripada Westlife. Dan gw sebenernya ga gtu suka Westlife, karena mereka ada karena Boyzone bubar.
Untuk comeback tour-nya itu, Boyzone bener2 work out. work out their relationship, work out ke gym. lucu aja ngeliat tua2 gtu - 30 smthng- masih nari2 dipanggung. gw sih lebih suka ngeliat mereka daripada boyband korea. dan mereka emang masih oke banget di panggung!!

gw bingung nih liburan mo ngapain....
mo jalan2, bingung ga ada tujuan. lagi musim swine flu. kan ga ada dr.Carlisle Cullen yang bakal menyelamatkan gw jadi vampir. (Swine flu = Spanish Flu in early 1900s. Edward Masen suffered Spanish flu and dr.Carlisle Cullen "safed" him by turning him into vampire)
apa gw ikut elective posting bedah aja ya?
"elective posting" ngikutin kakak ipar gw yang jadi dokter bedah di Batam, ngikutin operasi2nya dia tapi kalo bosen bisa jalan2 nyeberang pulau.

ada apa sih dengan RSCM sekarang ini?
Makin banyak security berseragam hitam di setiap persimpangan jalan.

Well.... It's getting annoying now..
masalahnya, akses keluar-masuk RSCM jadi makin terbatas.
katanya sih demi masalah keamanan.

kejadiannya tadi siang waktu gw pengen makan di kantin gizi.
ga ada lagi akses jalan belakang (note: forensik)
pintu ditutup.
udah diketok2.. ngejar2 sblm ditutup..
akhirnya cuma debat ga penting ama security.
"saya cuma ngikutin perintah atasan"
sh*t!
kalo ga kepaksa juga gw males lewat forensik.
akhirnya gw lewat PA... itu pun juga pake acara ditegur..
okedeh klo di PA emang udah lama ga dibolehin lewat situ.

kalo emang alasan keamanan, kenapa ga sekalian dibikin setiap pintu di RSCM pake access code.
kalo udah lebih kebanyakan dana, sekalian aja tiap nametag ada sensornya.
dulu gw sempet ketipu dengan kode2 di pintu IGD, yang ternyata ga perlu kode.
kalo sekarang, ga mungkin bgt gw bisa lewat tu pintu kalo ga ada securitynya karena emang pake kode.
tapi gw juga emang udah cape ngeliat banyak banget security di RSCM.
anyone feel the same?
bikin gw berasa asing di sekolah sendiri. though i don't really know that hospital.

udah ah... ga usah ngomongin security lagi..

semalem gw abis jaga di bangsal Neuro yang baunya minta ampun. apalagi kamar 517.
gw nahan2 napas klo ke ruangan itu daripada gw pingsan keracunan bau.
tapi, yang gw seneng dari jaga bangsal di neuro ada TVnya di kamar jaga dan gw bisa nonton Elijah Wood semalem. hahaha. sebenernya lebih penting Elijah Woodnya.

gila yaa..
tadi gw abis ujian ccf. gw datengnya telat masalahnya gw selesai kuliahnya juga telat...
eh, gw ketinggalan ujian listeningnya aja lho.. jadi nilai listening gw bener2 kosong.
dasar tu madame..

duh.. kepala gw mulai senut2..
routine migraine... a.k.a. menstrual migraine..
i really need some rest right now.

the only good things i have today is...
i just read that Blink 182 are back this summer. yay!!

p.s.: i really like reading artists' blog on myspace. one of my favorites is: davidarchuleta.

My dream last night was a bit weird.
It continued like a series.
I don't really remember what the beginning was...
I slept at 10p.m. but suddenly awoke at 2 a.m.
I just can remember that I want to meet someone (or something).
then I back to sleep again.
and the dream continued. I was sure that it was on the same settings.
I still looked for it.
then I woke up again at 4 am. but got back to sleep again.
It was the one that I can remember precisely.
I finally got the direction to the place of what I was looking for.
but... It was not an easy way.

It was with lot of turns, slippery slopes, floods... up side down...
well, It was like an off-road track but in the speed of a roller coaster (well, it was a dream anyway)

then I finally passed that way, but still I had not arrived to the place of what i was looking for.
I stopped for pee..
and I woke up for pee.

well, the lesson of that dream:
there was never an easy way.

and It happens today.

me, cici, and ryan went to Senayan City. for a stupid promo.
I'm just to tired to tell what happened for that freaking silly promo.
it was the most tiring day of this week for just a cheaper price.

if I could correlate,
It was similar conclusion to my dream last night.

There is never an easy way.
but if you get it easily, it means you're lucky.

<-- dari tampak depan ga ada yang keliatan aneh dengan jempol ini kan?

bagaimana dengan tampak belakangnya ini... -->

mungkin gambarnya ga gtu keliatan..
tapi klo boleh dibilang.. warnanya merah-ungu-biru.
yup. the bruises.

entah mengapa tadi pagi waktu gw sampe kampus dan turun dari mobil,
gw kejepit pintu mobil.
mungkin gw lagi ngelamun juga..pre-exams stress..
antara nangis ama ketawa.. ketawa karena kebodohan gw.. nangis karena itu sakit banget.
gambar itu gw ambil setelah 5 jam dari kejadian kejepit dan setelah 2 jam gw kasih thrombophob..
gw tau, tu jempol ga bakal sembuh cepet.. mudah2an ga nyusahin pas ujian gw besok..

ada2 aja nih cobaan mau ujian..
mudah2an besok ujiannya dikasih kemudahan.. udah diuji duluan pake jempol kejepit.
(amin)

hari ini gw bangun tidur dengan perasaan ga nyaman.
baik saat dibangunin sahur, atau pas mau berangkat kuliah.

lagi-lagi kemaren gw mimpi aneh. mungkin karena gw kebanyakan (sebenernya dibilang kebanyakan juga engga) baca/nonton SciFi. dan gw yakin karena kemaren malem gw ketiduran saat nonton film ttg some day this world ends, either by nuclear explosion nor space-things attack.
jadi gw merasa, ada yang mendatangi rumah gw, ada yg mendatangi dapur gw. dan itu akan meledak berkekuatan nuklir. sampai saat akhirnya gw dibangunin sahur, dunia masih panik, semua orang pengen menghindar..It's already there but we don't know when/how it will explode.. Amerika bahkan kirim kapal induknya (gw tau yang ini lebay,, namanya juga mimpi)..
mungkin ini juga karena bbrp hari yg lalu gw nonton di CineMax, The Astronaut's Wife - ttg Alien2 gtu, bbrp hari yg lalu jg gw mencoba membaca bbrp halaman awal dari The Host by Stephenie Meyer - ttg Alien2 jg.. ditambah ketiduran karena nonton how the world ends. padahal selain nonton, gw juga ketiduran sambil baca novel romance.
I do love scifi, tapi klo ampe dimimpiin,, males juga ya..

nah, abis solat subuh setelah sahur, gw tidur lagi.. lumayanlah setengah jam sebelum siap2 berangkat. emang sih ga dimimpiin.. but it was a restless sleep... bangunnya juga ga enak.. akhirnya,, I wasn't in a good mood today.

pagi ini gw berangkat naik taksi. ternyata jarak rumah-kampus cuma 12km!! artinya, kalo ditempuh dengan kecepatan rata2 50km/jam pun, bisa ditempuh 15 menit. tapi pada kenyataannya.. hal kaya gtu cuma bisa ditempuh kalo gw berangkat pagi2 buta. kalo berangkat kaya biasa, waktu tempuh gw 45 menit. kalo pulang dalam keadaan macet, paling cepet itu 50 menit,, kalo macet parah bisa 1,5 jam.

well, gw yakin semua temen2 gw akan membahas hal ini: hari pertama masuk klinik.
rotasi pertama gw THT/Otolaringology. sebenernya blm ngapa2in juga. dan sebenernya menyenangkan2 aja... tapi, I wasn't in a good mood today. i didn't really care what happened today.

one thing for sure, gw ga perlu ikut fitness/gym. naik-turun tangga/maraton di RSCM juga udah bikin gw ngos2an (yang notabenenya gw ga pernah olahraga). People, jangan heran ya kalo ngeliat cewe2 FK, pake rok pendek tapi betisnya gede2.

tadi gw selesai skill tutorial pas Jam 3. dan gw, pas Jam 3 juga ada CCF. alhasil,, gw jalan cepet ke CCF dari ruang kuliah poli THT lt.4 dalam 15mnt.. pfuih! ngos2an bgt. betis snut2.. lama2 juga nanti biasa.
take it just like any other exercise, then.
i do will have lot of exercise, then.

tadi pagi, mobil jemputan anak TK/SD Sabillia nyerempet mobil nyokap gw. udah gtu dia pake acara kabur segala. padahal bilangnya "saya ga bakal kabur kok". dan yang lebih parah, ga pake minta maaf. padahal jelas2 dia yang nabrak. bikin emosi aja pagi-pagi.. bikin gw nyumpahin yang engga-engga...

walaupun sebenernya gw ga nyetir di Jakarta..
well, I know how hard it is to drive in Jakarta.. makanya ampe ada group di Facebook :

If you can drive well in Jakarta, you can drive anywhere else in the world

ternyata tu grup membernya ampe 4000an aja gtu. paling banyak dibanding kota lain.

well...
dulu sempet ada trivia di kelompok diskusi gw yang dulu...
"kapan lo ga tinggal di Jakarta lagi?"
salah satu jawaban temen gw adalah "Saat plat nomor mobil Jakarta udah diakhiri 3(tiga) huruf"

gw ga tau itu mobil siapa... tapi kemaren siang, gw liat di parkiran FKUI Salemba 6, ada mobil Vios baru hitam dengan plat B1034NAA. masa berlaku 08-13 (artinya: tu mobil baru dibikin BPKBnya Agustus 2008 kemaren!!). you noticed that?? 3 huruf untuk plat nomor mobil Jakarta!! artinya: ada berapa ribu mobil di Jakarta sekarang???

sebenernya parkir di FK juga susah sih.. like a big puzzle.. mestinya ada grup di Facebook: If you can park well in FKUI Salemba6, you can park anywhere else in the world.

seminggu ini gw udah 2 kali ke toko buku.
i love the bookstores.
i love to buy books. :))

hari senin ke Plaza Indonesia ama Indri.
Kemaren, ke Gramedia Gunung Sahari ama Ryan, Darius, Arief. Gramedianya baru buka. jadi semua barangnya diskon 30%.

gw sih beli beberapa barang dan beberapa buku.
terutama beli buku-10-A series of Unfortunate Events.
buku ini nih, satu2nya series yang gw sabar nunggu beli seri terjemahannya. masalahnya, gw juga ga gtu eager dengan ceritanya. gw terjebak dalam membaca serialnya. dan gw, selalu setia ama serial yang gw ikutin.
for the sake of looking good in my bookself, gw sabar nunggu versi terjemahannya karena gw beli buku 1-6 dalam versi terjemahan. agak jelek aja klo gw beli sisa serial bukunya pake versi aslinya. ngerusak pemandangan rak buku gw. jadi, gw sabar2in aja nunggu sampe buku ke-13nya diterjemahin.

gw ga mau kejadian kaya serial Harry Potter gw. jelek banget di rak buku gw. 1-3 versi terjemahan. buku 4 versi paperback kids cover. buku 5 hardback kids cover. berhubung kedua buku yg gw beli ini gw ga bisa milih. yang ke4 itu karena emang masih jarang di Indo. dan yang ke5 itu karena cuma buku itu yg tersisa. dan baru deh buku 6 dan 7 hardback adult cover.
jelek banget di rak gw!! tapi gw ga berniat benerin juga sih...

nah, sekarang serial Twilight, gw ngumpulin versi Paperbacknya. emang sih gw sempet punya versi terjemahannya. tapi udah diambil mba nina. dan gw lebih seneng ngumpulin versi Paperbacknya. keren aja di rak gw. yah, gw ngumpulin Paperbacknya gni gara2 gw berniat membeli Breaking Dawn. dan gw ga pengen ada belang2 versi di rak gw. jadi, sambil Pre-Order Breaking Dawn, gw beli buku yg lainnya walau sebenernya gw udah baca.

dan ternyata, sekarang Eclipse lagi banyak dicari orang. untung gw udah ngelengkapin koleksi gw dari dulu. Waktu ke Periplus/aksara/kinokuniya --> eclipse ga ada.
dan kemaren di Gramedia, gw ga sengaja overheard ada cewe yang nanya mas2 informasi bisa pre-order Eclipse ga. trus gw tanyain aja ama mba2 kasir di depan gw, kalo blm ada rencana nerbitin Eclipse. dan begitu juga yang dibilang mas2 informasi.

untung obsessive passion gw ngumpulin Twilight terjadi beberapa bulan yg lalu. kalo sekarang kan semuanya lagi out-of stock. tadinya gw sempet ngumpulin versi terjemahannya, tapi ternyata gw ga cukup sabar nunggunya. Twilight obsessed.

call me obsessive.
call me overdoing it.

tapi,, gw sebel bgt sama Russel Brand di MTV VMA kemaren. he's bloody-sucks! agak aneh aja gtu nonton acara Amerika tapi hostnya Brittish mampus. serasa nonton MTV Europe Music Awards.
rasa sebel itu makin jadi saat line-nya Robert Pattinson (the cast for Edward Cullen in Twilight movie), dipotong gtu aja..
Rob: and now, please welcome -
Russel Brand : *&*(&%&^$#*%*)( [motong seenak rambutnya yang kaya kena angin topan]

gw pernah bilang dalam tulisan blog gw sebelumnya, klo Menurut gw, Robert Pattinson itu ga ganteng2 amat, makanya gw ga gtu notice dia di Harry Potter. Tapi setelah ngeliat beberapa foto dan trailer film Twilight... yah,, lumayanlah...

I was not a Rob-haters nor dislikers when the first time I know he got the role to be Edward. i was just a bit disappointed and expecting someone else to be Edward.

well, it turns out, He (Rob) completes my imagination everytime I read Twilight Saga. I pictured of him when I read Twilight. He's dazzling though. After a bit reading of him from twilight sources, he's so Edward.

dan lama-lama gw terpapar ama berita2 Twilight di internet, termasuk berita ttg dia,, menurut gw dia ganteng juga.

sebenernya ada foto Taylor Lautner yg lebih bagus dari yang disamping. In his real-life form. yang menurut gw juga, lumayanlah... tapi, gw emang dari awal not-into-Jacob. dibuku Twilight emang dideskripsiin klo dia mengikat rambutnya --> jelaslah klo dia gondrong... yah,, ngeliat gambar kaya gini... (bisa2 ntar pas nonton filmnya gw ngakak..) makin males aja ma Jacob.
i don't hate Jacob nor dislike him. gw cuma males aja. Sebenernya menurut gw, ga ada korelasinya antara ga suka Jacob jadi ga suka Taylor Lautner.. jelas2 mendingan dia dalam keadaan aslinya.. tampang lumayan-body ok. but i'm just not fond of him.

I prefer Rob.

as you may see on my right-tab.. i've added new gadgets there.
a picture of supporting Stephenie Meyer - the author of Twilight Saga,
and a wishlist.
since my birthday is few days to go... yeah,, i'm dreaming of those stuffs..
so,, if there's any stuffs i want, i write it there.
It's not what i'm asking for my gifts, I just wishing those stuffs.

so, today i was in my very good mood. i just want to look more preppy or -should i say- well-fashioned today. i rarely cared about what i wear. till this morning, i decided to wear it differently. i did care a bit of what i wore today. i just read an article that a simple accessoris could change the way you look. take it in bold letters, i rarely wore accessoris.
yeah, it happened. i was looked different... well, maybe, i need a fix up from my sister-in-law to be more fashionable.

i was in my very good mood, because, yesterday i completed reading a novel in one day though i was having an examination today. so helpless about the exam. just using my feelings to choose the answers. and gratefully, i passed the exam..
so, i aced two things. passing my exam, and read the novel.

i couldn't stop reading the novel. c'est tres bon!
i read "Sunday at Tiffany's" by James Patterson.
well, the book was about love and imagination. no wonder it had been New York Times' Bestsellers for few weeks.
now, i was trying to intoxicate Indri to read the book.

and today, Indri and I went to Plaza Indonesia just because wanted to go to the bookstores. Indri started to curious about the book i'd told her, and she wanted to see the book and just looking around in the bookstore. and me, I just want to drown in bookstore - and buy French Dictionary.
the reason why i liked to go to Plaza Indonesia was because there were 3 (three) imported bookstores in one building; ak'sa ra, Periplus, and Kinokuniya.

another reason why i was in good mood today, because i saw her in much better condition.

the only burden on my good mood today was my bloating stomach. fart-and-blurb-fart-and-blurb-again. was it the milk-effect in fasting day?? i didn't have lactose intolerance though.

First of all, gw minta maaf karena gw nulis ini. Gw ga mau gw juga ikut-ikutan sakit. Dengan cara nulis kaya gini, gw ngeluarin isi pikiran gw.

Pikiran ini membuat gw jadi gila. Gila bukan dalam arti sebenarnya. Gw amat mengkhawatirkan kesehatan temen gw saat ini. Walau gw juga mengkhawatirkan akademisnya. Belakangan ini gw ga tau kabar dia lagi.

Sebenernya dia tidak tampak sakit. Gw ga mau bilang keluhan utamanya dia apa. Karena gw sendiri ga tau apa yang paling mengganggu dia. Gw tau dia lagi terganggu. Tapi gw juga ga tau apa sebenernya yang mengganggu dia.
Mungkin gw terlalu mengkhawatirkan dia.

I’ve been there when she was in her acute phase. Really, I didn’t understand what really happened. But I gave my ears for her. I listened to her as I could though I didn’t know what it means. Now I understand. It does make me sad. It does make me worry.

Gw pengen membawa dia konsul ke yang ahli. Membiarkan dia menenangkan diri ternyata tidak menyelesaikan masalahnya. Begitulah yang gw dapatkan setelah bertanya ke yang ahli. Kasus dia ini juga banyak, ga jarang. Dan banyak yang bisa sembuh dari ini.

Girl, I really want to help you out.

The moral of the story,
Speak your mind!
Find any way to speak out your mind. Don’t let yourself drown with your minds.
People do have problems. It does not make you look weak if you speak it up. It makes you weak if you not speak it up.

I found writing as the way to speak my mind since I’m a less-talk person.
I don’t care if nobody read it. I just want to help out my self.

dulu jamannya gw masih baca chicken soup, jaman gw SMP dan awal2 SMA (whew.. five years ago), gw sering banget ngumpulin quotes. tiap awal cerita dari chicken soup hampir selalu ada quotes bagus. i like to reread those inspirational quotes. then i collect it in my book.

gw baru nemuin binder gw yang ada kumpulan quotes itu kemaren... well, lumayan bikin gw semangat lagi.. ehm.. semangat bukan kata yang tepat... mungkin, lebih terinspirasi lagi...

taken from everywhere, not only from chicken soup, and maybe you have heard it before:

"give the best to the world and the best will come back to you"

"your current actions set you up for all future reactions"

"don't wait for things to you, but make it happen!"

"success is not final, fail is not fatal; it is the courage to continue that count"

"temper is the one thing you can't get rid of by losing it"

sekarang gw lagi ngerjain project quoting other stories. sebenernya indri merequest gw untuk gw post di blog.. well, gw baru meng-quote 4 chapter dan itu udah 4 halaman (dgn font centuri gothic 12 dan margin 1')... jadi klo gw tulis di blog bakal panjang banget...

kayanya gw akan mulai ngumpulin quotes lagi.. back to old hobby? i do not think so. not yet.

"could a dead, frozen heart beat again? it felt like mine was about to."